Weight Loss Wednesday

I don't know about you but I have a hard time getting motivated about ANYTHING and normally my excitement dwindles and well I put aside whatever it is I was so passionate about to start with. Well, how about something that I can't get passionate about something that makes me so upset I can't even see straight. I bet some of you who know me well might guess what it is. I am overwhelmed with were to start and how to stick to a weight loss plan! I have several friends doing Weight Watchers and as much as I would love to join I really can't do that right now. And I honestly don't know if I can do it on my own. Yet the scale, the mirror and the looks as I help myself to dessert don't lie and sister has to do something. I am not happy and my body can't handle those extra pounds anymore. I have to do something I have to change. But I don't know where to start. Cooking healthy makes me nervous as I already have a hard time feeding my family of 5 for $100 a week as it is adding even MORE fresh fruits and veggies makes me nervous about my budget. I have recipe after recipe for things that are "healthy" but my family turns their noses up every time one of those makes an appearance at our table. I feel lost, overwhelmed, totally lack motivation, have almost no will-power, and honestly would rather be fat then even have to try! But the reality is this I am not healthy, I am ALWAYS tired, I am setting the worst example ever for my children and this weight is stopping me from doing things I want to do. So here I am positively at my weighty low...my rock bottom with this situation. Guess here goes nothing I have to make things happen for real this time because I CAN NOT wait any longer. Every Wednesday I am going to do a weight loss post all of it the good the bad and the ugly. Maybe my journey will encourage someone but more than anything I am going to use my blog to hold me accountable.
Starting weight:204 (last time I weighed which was wks ago and I don't own a scale...guess I better get one!)

To Paint or Not to Paint...That is the question?

So I read this blog all the time and I love the inside look she gives to her everyday life. Just today she posted this blog all about her new eye shadow. Funny that she posted that when I had been asking myself To paint or not to paint...the barn as they say;) I am I know before you all comment young but my face is really starting to show the stress of my life. I use to and by that I mean in High School wear make up and my mother was one who got up every morning and almost never left the house without a "full face on". But once I became a mother shower and dressing were are enough forget make up. Plus I had been told what a wonderful complection I had and that I didn't need make up. Yeah I own an entire drawer full but have never been faithful about using anything other than moisturizer and lip balm. Like I said my face is showing the years ladies and I have been wondering if makeup should be an everday thing like my routine (thanks to the get dressed challenge) to GET DRESSED!?!?! Am I vain for even caring about what my face looks like? Hum uh NO! So I was wondering what my sistas out there do? Do you "paint the barn" everyday? Do you do it for you or the hubby? I can't decide if I really need it or not but I know one thing...age and stress are not face friendly! Thoughts friends?